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Beyond Facial Recognition: How Abstract Art Trains AI to Understand Emotions | Medium

February 2024

In the previous article, I introduced my multidisciplinary background, the Altè community, and the inspiration behind my research. Considering the title of this article, there are a lot of elements involved. However, this diversity aligns with my identity as a multidisciplinary artist; I cannot confine myself to a single domain. Crazy as it might sound, there is harmony between all of the areas of research. For easier reading, I shall explain it in sections. Read more

Embarking on a Journey: Introduction to My Research and the Altè Community | Medium

February 2024

Hi, I’m Esther Bello, and I’m on a journey to be called Doctor. I would like to share my journey with you, and this is the genesis.

I started my PhD four months ago, and these past months have been quite existential for me. Now, I’m not chasing the title of Dr for the usual reasons — academia or becoming an ‘expert in my field’. No, I want to be called Dr for a much more personal reason. Read more

"Father it's me again. I don't know what to say" | Medium

January 2021 - January 2022

I just saw a tweet. This person said he hopes everything he’s praying and working for comes through this month. I scrolled past it like the other tweets before it that I didn’t care about. Then it occurred to me that I’ve lost all my hope. There’s nothing I’m hoping for anymore. I still have faith of living a good life and accomplishing goals. My problem is, I’ve stopped planning. So I have no goals. Although, I know I want to accomplish goals. Read more

IF YOU'RE HAVING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, | Medium

December 2020

Let me tell you about the first time I had suicidal thoughts, I was 16 or 17. I was just leaving secondary school. That was the first time I truly experienced loneliness. I had friends and family around. But that was when my loneliness began. I felt like I was supposed to be lonely Read more

THE CHANGE I'M SCARED OF | Medium

I was a very boring kid. Never looked for trouble, quiet, all I wanted to do was sing in church choir and make sure I came home with excellent results from school. I never even used to play games in primary school; Ice and water, police and thief. If I ever tried it, I’ll most probably end up crying because someone pushed me. I wasn’t bullied or anything. I just wasn’t noticed. Zero personality. Read more

December 2020